When I was a kid, I had wanted to grow up fast, pass out of school, college and start working. I wanted to be able to make my own decisions in life, be independent. Now, when I am nearing 40 in two months, I don't want to be responsible, don't want to work. I want to go back to being that kid where life was carefree.
No wonder many stories were written, movies were made on this time machine. Am sure people might have spent time and money in researches and experiments, trying to find a way to move between certain points of time. Many times I had wished that I had a device that would help me go back to a particular event that happened in the past and have the ability to change it.
I wish I had a chance to rewrite my past. In the same way, I wish I could get a sneak peek on what the future has in store for me. That would help in planning my life. Not that I am going to stop myself from dying. I would never do that. Am not one of those insane people who wants to live indefinitely in this world. Still knowing when I would die would help in savoring the present, travel to places that I want to visit, spend more time with dear ones and of course eat all that I want.
A couple of things I wish I could go back and do -
👉 Asked my mother to stop taking medicines for the white patches on her skin.
👉 Asked my mother to not go through the uterus operation that she had undergone many years back. That operation was done wrongly. The doctor stitched her uterus back upside down. (we figured it out later and the doctor did not even apologize)
👉 Asked my mother to have food that would boost her immunity. May be that way she wouldn't have had breast cancer.
👉 Applied straight to the Physics Under Graduate course and not waste time, money and effort in preparing for the numerous engineering college entrance examinations. Seriously when I think of it now, I guess I wouldn't have liked studying engineering after all.
👉 Spent more time with my paternal grandparents and made sure they did not make those wrong choices later in life. I wish I had talked to them and had pointed out the mistakes they were doing at that time. I really wish they had come and stayed with us until they left this world.
👉Taken some time to think through before I made that wrong decision in my life two years back. I wish I had told my parents immediately that I did not want to go through the engagement. Would have saved us all from going through the pain, agony and sorrow.
👉Taken back a lot of harsh or wrong words I had told my parents, family, friends. Taken back some of those things I had done without thinking twice, messages I shouldn't have sent in the first place.
I could go on and on and keep adding to this list!!!
If we all had the means to change our past, am sure it would have been chaotic.
And that is why life is beautiful. You need to experience the good and bad, make mistakes and learn from them. They change the way we look at things and makes one appreciate every small good thing that happens in life.
And that is how another day passes - wishing there was a way to change the past and hoping to have a glimpse of what lies in store for me in the days to come!!!
No wonder many stories were written, movies were made on this time machine. Am sure people might have spent time and money in researches and experiments, trying to find a way to move between certain points of time. Many times I had wished that I had a device that would help me go back to a particular event that happened in the past and have the ability to change it.
I wish I had a chance to rewrite my past. In the same way, I wish I could get a sneak peek on what the future has in store for me. That would help in planning my life. Not that I am going to stop myself from dying. I would never do that. Am not one of those insane people who wants to live indefinitely in this world. Still knowing when I would die would help in savoring the present, travel to places that I want to visit, spend more time with dear ones and of course eat all that I want.
A couple of things I wish I could go back and do -
👉 Asked my mother to stop taking medicines for the white patches on her skin.
👉 Asked my mother to not go through the uterus operation that she had undergone many years back. That operation was done wrongly. The doctor stitched her uterus back upside down. (we figured it out later and the doctor did not even apologize)
👉 Asked my mother to have food that would boost her immunity. May be that way she wouldn't have had breast cancer.
👉 Applied straight to the Physics Under Graduate course and not waste time, money and effort in preparing for the numerous engineering college entrance examinations. Seriously when I think of it now, I guess I wouldn't have liked studying engineering after all.
👉 Spent more time with my paternal grandparents and made sure they did not make those wrong choices later in life. I wish I had talked to them and had pointed out the mistakes they were doing at that time. I really wish they had come and stayed with us until they left this world.
👉Taken some time to think through before I made that wrong decision in my life two years back. I wish I had told my parents immediately that I did not want to go through the engagement. Would have saved us all from going through the pain, agony and sorrow.
👉Taken back a lot of harsh or wrong words I had told my parents, family, friends. Taken back some of those things I had done without thinking twice, messages I shouldn't have sent in the first place.
I could go on and on and keep adding to this list!!!
If we all had the means to change our past, am sure it would have been chaotic.
And that is why life is beautiful. You need to experience the good and bad, make mistakes and learn from them. They change the way we look at things and makes one appreciate every small good thing that happens in life.
And that is how another day passes - wishing there was a way to change the past and hoping to have a glimpse of what lies in store for me in the days to come!!!
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